
For a pillow of your arm, as fleeting as a spring night's dream, it would be a real pity to have a worthless rumor spread about me.
Suō no Naishi (dates unknown; c. 1037 – c. 1109) was a lady-in-waiting and poet of the late Heian period. Her real name was Taira no Nakako; the daughter of Taira no Munenaka, governor of Suō, she served four emperors in succession — Go-Reizei, Go-Sanjō, Shirakawa and Horikawa. This poem is Senzai Wakashū, Miscellaneous I, 964. Its headnote tells the story: on a bright moonlit night in the second month, people had gathered at the Nijō-in and talked the night through; Suō no Naishi, leaning against something, murmured softly, 'if only I had a pillow'. Hearing this, the Major Counselor Fujiwara no Tadaie slid his arm under the blind — 'use this as your pillow'. She composed this poem on the spot. Tadaie replied: 'Bound as we are, how could a deep spring night's arm-pillow end as an empty dream?' Not a love poem in earnest, but a quick-witted exchange, the entertainment of a moonlit gathering.
A poem that pushes an offered arm away with a smile. The spring night is short, and a dream on such a night is shorter still. Even if I rested my head on your arm, it would last no longer than a dream — and yet the rumor it would start would last and last. Weighing the short dream against the long rumor, she declares that her name is what she cannot afford to lose. In 'kainaku' she hides 'kaina', the arm itself, so that the very refusal contains the thing refused. She is not angry and not embarrassed. On a drowsy night, a mind sharpened by the brightness of the moon produced this on the spot. She declines without shaming him. That is the elegance of the poem.
What drew us most to this poem is that it is a refusal in which nobody gets hurt. She will not borrow the arm, and the reason is said in one breath: dreams are short, rumors are long. No anger, no blushing — just a mind wide awake in the drowsiness of a moonlit night. We set the scene of the headnote directly in the present: the second round of a party on a night when the moon is too bright, the talk going round for the second time, a yawn stifled against the wall, 'if only I had a pillow' murmured to no one. An arm reaches over from the next seat: 'use it as a pillow'. After the poem is sung, the chorus turns its balance into today's words — 'if I borrowed that arm, by morning a rumor longer than any dream would rise' — and refuses with 'sorry, if it's only sleepiness, I'll manage it myself'. The kindness she keeps; only the arm is given back. We added one thing the poem does not say: the truth is, she was already sleepy, because the moon was too bright. But she does not want tomorrow's rumor, and so she orders a cup of tea. Sleepy but not asleep, arm returned, holding on with tea. The headnote says she was 'leaning' — it never says she slept, and someone who answers with a poem like this on the spot is certainly awake. A verse a lady-in-waiting tossed back with a laugh at a moonlit gathering a thousand years ago, set down again in the sleepiness of a spring night's second round.
春の夜の(千載集/周防内侍・百人一首67番)Garu JP
月が 明るい 夜の 二次会
話は もう 二周目に 入って
壁に もたれて あくび ひとつ
枕が あれば と ひとりごと
隣の 席から 腕が 伸びて
枕に していいよ と ひとこと
春の夜の 夢ばかりなる 手枕に
かひなく立たむ 名こそ惜しけれ
その腕 借りたら 朝には 朝には
夢より 長い うわさが 立つ
ごめんね 眠気なら
自分で なんとか する
夢なら 見るのも 覚めるのも
誰にも 見られず 済むけれど
うわさは 覚めない 春の夜の
月より 長く 残る
差し出された 手は ありがたく
笑って 押し返す
春の夜の 夢ばかりなる 手枕に
かひなく立たむ 名こそ惜しけれ
その腕 借りたら 朝には 朝には
夢より 長い うわさが 立つ
ごめんね やさしさは
受け取って 腕は 返す
本当は もう 眠たかった
月が 明るすぎる 夜だから
でも 明日の うわさは いらない
そう 決めて お茶を 頼む
春の夜の 夢ばかりなる 手枕に
かひなく立たむ 名こそ惜しけれ
その腕 借りたら 朝には 朝には
夢より 長い うわさが 立つ
ごめんね 眠気なら
自分で なんとか する
名こそ惜しけれ……
夢は 短く 朝は 早い
Haru no yo no (Senzai-shu / Suo no Naishi, Hyakunin Isshu No. 67) Garu JP
Second round of the party, moon bright outside
The talk has gone round for the second time
Leaning on the wall, I stifle a yawn
"If only I had a pillow," I murmur
From the next seat an arm reaches over —
"You can use it as a pillow," he says
For an arm-pillow as brief as a spring night's dream,
a pointless rumor would rise — and my name is too dear for that
If I borrowed that arm, by morning — by morning
a rumor longer than any dream would rise
Sorry — if it's only sleepiness,
I'll manage it myself
A dream, whether you see it or wake from it,
is over without anyone watching
But a rumor never wakes — on a spring night
it lasts longer than the moon
The hand held out to me, I take with thanks
and laughing, push it gently back
For an arm-pillow as brief as a spring night's dream,
a pointless rumor would rise — and my name is too dear for that
If I borrowed that arm, by morning — by morning
a rumor longer than any dream would rise
Sorry — the kindness I'll keep,
but the arm I give back
The truth is, I was already sleepy
because the moon was too bright tonight
But I don't need tomorrow's rumor
So I decide, and order a cup of tea
For an arm-pillow as brief as a spring night's dream,
a pointless rumor would rise — and my name is too dear for that
If I borrowed that arm, by morning — by morning
a rumor longer than any dream would rise
Sorry — if it's only sleepiness,
I'll manage it myself
My name is too dear for that...
Dreams are short, and morning comes early